Regret?

When I am an old woman and I can hardly see
And my limbs are as gnarled as an old oak tree
And naught but my thoughts are left to me
Should I regret the time I spent with thee?

When the tapestry of life has been spun
And sands of time have been outrun
And we feel as if we have just begun
Should I sorrow when our time is done?

When the end has come to us at last
And all of our life is in the past
And all that's left to us is fading fast
Could all that we had be surpassed?

Forever Living, Forever Dying

Forever living, forever dying.
Upon the wings of both I'm flying.
Here forever trapped to be,
Between the mountains and the sea

And somewhere else I do not know.
Somewhere midst the drought and snow.
Or Else in prairie lands so vast.
Perhaps its now, perhaps the past.

I look to see but cannot tell,
Am I in Heaven or in Hell?
Where at last does it stop,
In the Valleys or Mountain top?

Cannot rest, nor drink my fill.
Continuing on, tormented still.
And my soul is forever crying,
Forever living, forever dying.

A Million Things

There are a million things I could have done.

I could have reached and touched the sun.
A million things, and all times two,
All of which, I did not do.

I could have drunk the desert rain.
I could have loved, but feared the pain.
I could have lived a life so free,
unbound, as a bird upon the sea.

A million things, and all times two,
All of which, I did not do.

I might have found the rainbows end.
I might have been a constant friend.
I might have been a beacon bright,
I might have been someone's delight.

A million things, and all times two,
All of which, I did not do.

There are a million things I might have done
Coulds and mights, and did not one.
A million things, and all times two,
All of which, I did not do.

The Search

I left to search this troubled world

Curious what I might see.

I left to see the distant lands

And set my dreaming free.

I walked along the empty roads

And pathways through the woods.

And crowded cities thick with life

And spots where no ones stood.

(I cannot walk this road again

I cannot sing this song.

I cannot feel you next to me

Now that you are gone.)

I've seen the rising of the sun

As red as blood could be.

And I've seen the brightest moon

Glowing on the sea.

Misty mountains filled my view

And deserts bare and dry.

I've yet to see the ocean depths

Or touch the evening sky.

(I cannot walk this road again

I cannot sing this song.

I cannot feel you next to me

Now that you are gone.)

I've walked atop the glaciers
And through the midnight caves.
I've seen the birth of new life
And old men in their graves.

I've seen a miracle
But doubted all I knew.
I never found a heaven on earth
But I did find you.

(I cannot walk this road again

I cannot sing this song.

I cannot feel you next to me

Now that you are gone.)

I don't need a home

to say I'm coming back.

with all the wandering I've done

I've not found the thing I lack.

Of all the steps I've taken

I thought that I might find.

Some sweet escape, a last relief

to ease my troubled mind.

(I cannot walk this road again

I cannot sing this song.

I cannot feel you next to me

Now that you are gone.)

Dance with Me

"Where are we going?" I asked and stumbled just slightly. It was just me and Chris tonight. Dianne had stayed home.

"You'll see," He said and I felt his arm tense as he steadied me. I could faintly smell his unique scent on the whisper of wind that passed us by.

"Or rather I won't," I teased him right back. My hand was wrapped around his bicep and his other hand was covering mine.

"Don't worry, I won't keep you in the dark for long," I could hear him smiling at the banter.

"Seriously Chris, where are we going?" I asked as we walked down the street. I was comfortable with him leading me now, though most of the time Dianne was with us too. Chris had said that where we were going Dianne wouldn't be very comfortable.

Chris laughed at my impatient tone and I shot a glare at him that was pretty ineffectual. I could tell because he laughed again. "We'll be there soon Miss Impatient."

"Can you at least give me a hint?" I begged.

"Oh no," Chris said and patted my hand, "any hint I would offer would give it away. You're just way to cleaver for your own good."

We walked along in silence for a few minutes when Chris said, "you know you're cute when you pout, but that's not going to get me to tell you where we are going, besides, you'll know soon enough."

I laughed and leaned into him, letting my head rest on his shoulder for the briefest of moments.

After walking a few more minutes I could hear something on the wind, the faintest strains of music.

"Are we going to a concert?" I asked. I could feel his gaze turn towards my face.

"Not quite," he said and steered us closer to the music. At the moment it was a nice piece of west coast swing. I could feel the difference in the air when we entered a building and the music was much louder.

"There is a chair to your five o'clock," Chris said and steered me towards it. I sat down and listened to the music for a moment.

"This is nice music Chris, but why are we here?" I asked. I was dying to know what he had planned.

"Just sit still a moment," Chris said. I could hear him rustling close by and a couple of faint clicks, and I jumped horribly when I felt him touch my foot.

"What are you doing?" I asked and pulled my foot away from him.

"Changing your shoes," he said in a matter of fact tone.

"And why are you doing that?" I asked, I was really confused now, but allowed him to switch out my shoes. I could tell that they were low heels, strapped, but sturdy.

"Remember a few days ago when we were at that little cafe and that song came on?" Chris said. He had finished with one foot and started on my other.

"Yeah, What about it?" I asked. I was beginning to get an idea of where this was all going and I almost wanted to cry from the sweetness of Chris's gesture.

"You said that you missed dancing. You missed the Cha-Cha, and the Samba, Foxtrot, and the Waltz." he said as he finished with my other foot, "So I thought you would like to go dancing again," as he finished he sounded as if he were unsure. I could feel him still crouched down in front of me and I felt the warmth and pressure as he places his hands lightly on my knees. "That is, if you want to," he said, "we can do something else if you would rather."

I couldn't resist leaning forward and wrapping my arms around his neck in a tight embrace. "Thank you," I whispered against his cheek. I leaned back and he stood up, holding on to both of my hands and lead me towards the dance floor.

As a new song flooded the room my left hand slid up his arm to rest just above his bicep and I held out my left for him to grasp. I felt his other hand on my shoulder blade and he said, "you ready?"

I nodded and he lead me with sure movements into a flowing waltz.